Gratitude
/ˈɡradəˌt(y)o͞od/
the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness.
"she expressed her gratitude to the committee for their support"
The Holidays are upon us. That reliable time of year where we each worry about money more than we already do, book out our calendars months in advance, and try to let everyone in our lives know we are doing JUST FINE.
Year two of Holidays during the plague is hitting a bit different for me personally. I don't know if it is having a baby, exhaustion, or fear of travel, but this year seems in all honesty pretty dumb. I mean who cares about a turkey? I am from the midwest and winter is upon us so I can have stuffing basically anytime. Also chicago and gravy? IDK something is there with that too… My point is who cares!?
I used to be BIG into any and all holidays. In truth, I still am. Yet, on a smaller scale. Now I just want my holiday to be intimate. I want my family. My chosen, beautiful family. I want to cook the food we love. Not out of tradition, but need to share, and warmth to give. I want to foster community- but with my inner circle.
I think it is important for certain things in our lives to shift. For me that is a holiday. No longer does it need to be a big deal. A day filled with stress, timing, and consideration for everyone else. And don't get me wrong- I LOVED those days of planning, preparing cooking and sharing! Yet my needs have shifted. Instead I want it to be a day together. Easy. Calm. fulfilling. And nourishing. I want slowness. I want sweet moments. I want time to watch, and to participate.
Instead of wishing for the past, I am choosing to show gratitude for what I have today. The pandemic, lockdown, and the birth of my daughter has shifted my perspective drastically. I am so thankful to be in a space in my life that I can welcome this shift with arms wide open. I am thankful to slow, watch, and relish in my inner circle. I am so thankful to have time to share. This is what makes me strong for all of my communities I participate in.
It is getting darker and darker out there nowadays- (if ya know what I mean) and I hope you are able to find your gratitude.
Happy Holidays
Cam